This letter is a part of the series – Dear Son, that I have been doing since my son was born. He was diagnosed with ADHD when he was 4. My journey with him has been full of difficulties in the sense that I live in a society where mental health and any mental issues are always disregarded. For my son, I had to break all cultural chains, fight all stereotypical judgments and do what was right for him. I feel blessed to have him in my life and I will always fight for him and his smile.
When I saw the world around you going faster than you, I grabbed your hand and ran with you to keep you at the pace the world was going. Today, I realized how wrong I was.
Forgive me little one. Please understand that my intention was good. I am just a mother, doing everything I can or at least trying to do everything that I can. Sometimes I am right and sometimes I am wrong and when I am wrong, I try my best to make it right. That’s how I am learning to be the mother that you need.
I just want to let you know that I don’t care how fast the world is going anymore. From now, I will grab your hand and I will walk with you, as slow as you want. We will walk at the pace you are comfortable in. Even if it takes years to reach where others take a day. It doesn’t matter, as long as we make it.
It wont be easy, my little one, I know that. There many be many stops, many U-turns, many judgements, many sarcastic laughs but I will always be there, holding your hand, walking right beside you, fighting with you, fighting for you.
Together, we can do it. You can do it. But even if we don’t, all that matters in the end is that, we tried our best, you tried your best. That’s all that matters.
I love you to the moon and back. I am so very proud to be your mother because you truly are unique and special. If I was to choose, I would always choose you, over and again.
– Aysha Ahmed
To all the mothers who are struggling with a special child, don’t make the mistake I did. Don’t put your child in a situation he/she is uncomfortable in. Let them grow at their pace and let them learn at their speed. I know sometimes it’s hard to watch all other kids accomplish so much at their age but hey, all kids are different. Some will fly in the sky, some will swim deep in the ocean, and some will run as fast as lightening.
Don’t lose your hope. Belief in their destiny because they are destined to do great things that no one else can. It’s only a matter of time, courage and lots of hard work.
You mothers are the real heroes, remember that. You will always be your child’s motivation and the safe space where they can be free and happy.
More power to you all.